What if I don’t believe anymore? What happens now? What's next? What about the Bible? The book that kept trying to convince us to love someone that maybe we don’t love? So many make it a narrative about a god that is so insecure that if you call him another name he banishes you to hell. Is there a hell? Or have we just come up with it to fit our need for there to be a battle between good and evil? To create an American scenario of what a winner and a loser are?
The process of losing your religion isn't easy. As Lyn Morrow said, "It's like wiping the wipe board clean" of everything you ever believed and starting over. That creates so many PTSD triggers for so many of us because these are things that people we respected taught us, our parents may have given us, church leaders we trusted, all shared their concrete personal truths to us, full of certainty. Then finding out their certainty, isn't yours. What do I do now?