On this weeks episode, I share the awakening of my newly found coping technique, avoidance. I make a public commitment to do better for myself, our guests, and the podcast.
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HI FELLOW LOSERS!,
I feel I owe all the listeners of this podcast and apology. This podcast really is a journey down the therapeutic deconstruction of my past religion, while at the same time entering with, for a short time, the guests in their journey and sharing it all with you, the subscriber.
My most significant critique of myself as a host has always been that I talk too much. I get frustrated because I listen back to the show and hear less of the guest's story than I want to than I know you want to because I’m talking too much.
I have realized, through my journey, and sharing my story with others, that I often divert away from my own story with humor, or a side note, because I start to feel what’s really going on inside me deeply, and for some reason, I am afraid to engage it and heal it.
I’ve only realized this over the last few weeks while noticing it with my therapist. Since then, I am now noticing that I am doing the same thing on the podcast. When guests get deeper, I get scared. I cover that fear with cutting them off from talking.
Now, rabbit trails are truly part of our stories. Our lives are not linear, they’re random, chaotic, and the rabbit trails help us to see the linear story and progress we're making underneath it all.
I’m only sharing this because I want to commit to myself and you to allow my own story to be told without fear of following the deep emotions that come up. While at the same time taking better care of leading our guests to share their stories without me interrupting their flow and deep discovers. Fuck it! Let's get deeper! Let's feel more! Let's heal more!
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Brendan Gladney, Stacy Osiowy, Kimberly Nelson, Christian Grindstaff, Larry Overstreet, Heather Washburn, Alan Lamon, Michael Schmitt, Grace Kwon, Allen Mattox, Roberta Ballard-Myer, Alyssa Milan, Luis Castro Jr, T.O. Knowles, Jonathan Bowles, Thiago Bodini, Travis Turner, Samantha Davis, Chad Weber, Mary Ratti, Justin Beal, Matt Proudfoot, Alf Herigstad, Kaeleb Reyes, Mekenna Rose, Christy Feltman, Morgen Carpenter, Rachael Wold, Morgan Weisz, Sarah Matthews, Jay Middleton, Diana Brown, John Stuart, Mandy Logan, Susan Ardrey, Blake Willis, Susan Lepin, Anonymous Butterfly, and Anonymous Couple..