There’s no doubt that I was triggered in a lot of ways while recording this episode with Chad. Goal setting, ambition, competition, self-help, growth strategies, and gurus are all things that trigger me in a negative manner. Then he mentions the name of someone he appreciates from our shared past, that personifies everything I despise about Pentecostal, Charismatic Christianity. Needless to say, internal growth opportunities have presented themselves to me, and I get to begin that process with Chad and finish the work later on my own.
Here is an interesting episode for ya. Chad Weber knew me when I was a pastor; he was a parishioner at the particular brand of mega-monster we both attended. But until now, we're never really talked. He's a fellow Loser and a producer of the show, and we sit down over drinks to chat. As we begin his story into MMA, Jujitsu, and his debut cage match, we quickly move into, what was, a therapeutic conversation around being goal driven as a Type A personality. This is a frank and transparent ride through my journey as it is today, an online guru?
Patrick and I engage in a revealing and transparent conversation about our personal struggles of growth in our lives, our marriages, and how we’re engaging the non-work work of embracing our emotions, feelings, pasts, pains and doing that together with our spouses moving toward the future.
Patrick is also working through coming to the end of his soccer career and answering the hard questions like, What do I do now? What do I want to do with my life? All the while I am still coming through leaving the pastorship and finding my way in life through this podcast...